where did my glam life go??

If you would have asked me at this exact time last year, I would not tell you my life would be how it actually turned out. I was going out and drinking my little (much bigger and shaplier then) butt off, going on business trips, looking pretty, getting frisky with my boyfriend when ever i felt like it... etc. etc. little did I know that my life was going to change FOREVER in just a few short weeks.

I was always a work-a-holic. I have been working since 14, and pretty consistantly had two jobs since I was 16. I was, and am still to this day, unsure of where I exactly I wanted to take all this job experience, but I loved staying busy. I had the occasional lazy days, when I could... but I never thought I would be in my pajamas all day everyday... until now. ( because thats exactly what I do!)

Some of my work friendsies <3 ( In Winnipeg,CA. about 8 weeks prego!!)

I feel bad, a lot, because when Ben comes home from work I STILL look like I just rolled out of bed. I usually don't shower untill dinner time ( when I get one!) and I change out of my p.j's just to throw on some clean ones. Don't get me wrong, I NEVER look like this in public. Not even having a newborn and a two year old is an excuse to look like a hot mess in public. I refuse to let people KNOW I am a lazy bum. (Even though I just told the world. but TRUST me.. you'll NEVER see it ;) ) I would love Ben to come home to a beautiful fiance, with a super clean house, and children that behave. But, unfortunately, we're going to have to work on that.

I have two kids and my life is a mess. I barely have any pictures of me and Landon, because I never want to remember what a mess I am!! everyones roles are a little crazy around here. I have a big boy who thinks hes a baby...

And a baby who thinks he's a big boy...

See, even my kids wear jammies all day.

And Ben and I... well, I don't know who we are anymore. It's a beautiful disaster.

I  used to pride myself on looking presentable. Not in a super materialistic kind of way, but when I look good, I feel good. Wedge boots make me very happy. Dresses and tights make me feel like a girl. I just love fashion, and love dressing up. And now, since I'm exclusively breast feeding, I cant even leave the house with out a button up shirt on. (luckily I have a few)

I love that baby so much, but DAMN YOU FOR RUINING MY BODY AND MY SENSE OF STYLE!!!

But, at the end of the day, I can get all of that stuff back, and for now I will just (try) to enjoy my kids, and watch them grow and learn. Every milestone amazes me. Plus I have this to look forward to every other week..

             

my life may be completely different, but I wouldn't change it for the world!!

(FAUX-BLOGGERS NOTE:: I would change my body though. how did my hips get this freakin' wide?!? and I would love my boobs back too!)

xoxo