And then there's days like this...

Welp, LJ's cold is in full force. I took him to the doctor today, and everything is normal (normal cold, that is.). I assumed so, especially because I know this is the cold that Gavin came down with last week. Landon seemed to be feeling much better yesterday... Until last night. Poor baby can't breathe and when he does finally fall asleep, he ends up coughing and wakes him up. He didn't want to play today, and he was SO tired from not sleeping last night. I couldn't fight the nagging feeling in my mind that, what IF there was something worse going on and I didn't take him soon enough. Luckily, we don't have to worry, and although he's still not feeling great I am much more at ease.

He took a late nap today, but since he's so miserable I'm just letting him do whatever he wants, which is a whollle bunch of things Im going to regret next week. Nursing ALL THE TIME.. Sleeping in the swing ( which took a long time to break!) and holding him a lot. I just want the little guy to be as Comfortable as possible. I hate seeing him so miserable :(

As I was just writing about just putting him down and my anxiety levels low, he immediately woke up and now levels are high. Will I ever learn to not jinx things? Sigh. I will sleep again one day...

I planned on strict sleep training this week, working him out of our room and into the crib (even though I think he's more ready for that then I am) and nap training. I'm kinda hoping that his napping issues are what's causing him to not sleep at night, plus I've cut about half of the night feelings out ( yep! Still waking up about every hour at 5 MONTHS!!) so at some point he should hopefully catch on. I'm a lunatic. I need sleep to normalize myself. Ohhh the days I thought being a mom meant snuggling and playing with a sweet baby. Who ever knew there's so many strategies. Shits getting real in mommyhood.

It's coming up on midnight, and I have to get some sleep (or try!). Landon's been down for about 10 minutes without a wake up, so I MIGHT have a stretch of sleep. Unless I just jinxed it again?! I didn't do anything but snuggle and tend to this sweet boy today so I've got some serious damage control to do around the house.

Someone don't be shy and ask to take Landon for a few hours so I can take a nap!! ;)

Xoxo

Anyone have a chill pill?

Well hello blog world!! Unfortunately, I'm iPhone blogging tonight, NOT my favorite way of doing it. But it's 1 am and I just need to babble.

Gavin had a bit of a cold this week, a little cough and a one day baby fevers of a just a smidge over 100. He was pretty calm that day, ( if you know Gavin, you know that's weird!) and didn't get off the couch much. He was more than normal the next day, and annoying as ever. Mom. Mom. Mom. Mom. Mom. Ahh at some point I always go crazy. Off track- my point is, LJ had developed a little cough too, and although it sounded icky its not really bad. He was acting completely normal then boom. He puked like 6 times in an hour span. I suddenly came down with a severe case of first time mom syndrome. And it was bad. Im talking this kid was PUKING. Cough, gag, release. It was so sad his poor little body just didn't know how to get it out. He became really drowsy, almost lethargic... He didn't even want to hold his head up and he just laid on my lap with his binkie ( which he NEVER takes from me with out a fight) . I was immediately thinking the worst, and thinking about calling the doctor, taking him to the hospital etc. etc. etc.

My mom held him as he slept for about an hour, so we could monitor how he was acting. He was out so cold I thought he would sleep til morning. But he didn't, and when he woke up he was himself again. Color in his face, babbling, trying to nurse ( I'm sure he was starving!) I was so relieved. I waited another good hour before leaving an he was just fine. He's still coughing a little, but I think (hope!) we're over the puking.

I spent the whole rest of the night being thankful for my sweet little baby. I'm pretty freakin dramatic sometimes, but today just kind of dramatic. I didn't think he was going to die or anything, but I was definitely scared. It's crazy what you take for granted (like your HEALTH!!!) and I'm not sure I will anymore. At least remind my self not too!! All I want to do is snuggle my baby boy right now, but I've been doing some serious sleep training and don't want to throw it all away.

Spent the rest of the night cleaning/ sanitizing the house to get ready to play with Aubrey in the morning! Luckily we were gone all day so all those germs ( and mess.. Hehe) are at my moms house.

Fingers crossed for sleep tonight. My sweet boy is gonna need it, and lord knows this momma hasn't slept in about a year. ( horrible pregnancy = horrible sleeping baby? Can I catch a break please?) I'm going to try whole I can! Goodnight blognerds!!

why HELLO there!

So, my ever so awesome fiance bought me a new iPhone a few weeks ago, and I cancelled my t-mobile account. At that point I lost something that I didn't know know was so important to me... unlimited data. I'm having serious pinterest with drawls, and my fingers could bleed from all the paper cuts I'm getting from bridal magazines. (AKA... online browsing is SO much cooler.) middle of the night breastfeeding... actually any time of the day breastfeeding, is getting boring. I can't even believe how much I miss my phone. I always thought I didn't care about that kind of garbage, but I clearly do. It's been almost a week, and I've got a couple days left til it rolls over. don't hate me facebook, I will return soon...

So nothings new in the world of mommyhood, Ben and I are both not feeling too hot. Landon seems to have his moments, but hes mostly just congested with he wakes up. He has returned to being a nightmare sleeper, so anything hindering his sleep, i.e not being able to breathe, really makes it more difficult for all of us. He has started sleeping two hour intervals again, instead of 20-40 mins like he was, so it's a bit better. and of course he napped today for almost 4 hours... but that does NOT happen at night. I actually don't even want to talk about his sleep habits. it stresses me out  and I have no wine. ( and can't drink it if I did because HE NEVER SLEEPS!! sigh.)

I went to the zoo with my sisters yesterday, it was both of my kids' first time. Gavin was... mostly interested in the rocks and the dirt. but it was still fun! and good memories for my sisters and I (who are beginning to see each other more often, but due to history have not spent our lives together doing fun things like going to the zoo! or knowing each other for that matter.) and also for the kids to get to know their cousins a bit better. I had such a great relationship with most my cousins, and still do today. I love passing that on to my kids!!

Landon is officially 4 months old. I seriously couldn't have dreamt up a cuter baby. I just adore him. hes rolling over belly to back, and now back to belly. next is crawling... I'm not looking forward to that. my little baby and his big ass belly are growing up SO fast. I can't believe at this time last year I had just found out that I was prego. and now my life looks like this. Amazing!

I cleaned the SHIT out of my house today. I love when this place feels like a home. the kids have been so good, and the long naps really helped me too. I wish I had this much time to myself all the time!! (although then I would probably use it for things like a massage, or a nap... still sounds phenomenal.)

I suppose I should get back to slaving away. (Ben told me I was "like" Cinderella today... I am unsure he meant that in a bad way, but, THANKS. She damn near a slave for her evil step-mom and step-sisters... but, I think that was his way of noticing my hard work? I'm unsure, but, I'll take it I guess.)

(FAUX-BLOGGERS NOTE:: I can't upload any pictures from my phone since I'm out of stupid data. and my camera is in the kitchen and... well, I'm not. so no pictures today, but soon!! Don't have cute kid with drawls, I'll get ya next time!!)

xoxo