Grabbing 2012 by the balls!

Okay, I am going to try this again. this is offic the 3rd (!) blog i've started... and so far the 3rd blog I haven't caught up with. I went ahead and deleted my older entries, realizing all my post were all writen (all... 3 of them) while pissed, sleep deprived, and/or actually sleeping. Now i have a better hold on this whole  mommy thing... I said better. not good.

Last year when I kissed my boyfriend at midnight, I said, " I promise this year will not be like last. we are going to start over and it WILL be amazing."

I did not however, mean I would push out a baby just 10 months later. oh, but i did. but since that day, my life has REALLY started. something I never thought I would do, something I never actually knew I wanted. Now I stay home instead of dancing on a stripper pole at some random Everett bar with Brittani,  or on top of tables, or puke in a bar bathroom just in time to make it out for another round of shots... I love my new life. and I am seriously waiting to get back into doing those things until the smallest babe starts sleeping through the night.

I expect 2012 to be an amazing year, full of new experiences for me and my family. the babes will grow, I will learn, me and my other half will finially figure it out. blah blah blah I know... But I am going to own this year and it will NOT define who I am.

Moral of the story I want to keep this blog up. with help from my gorg friends/family feeding me some motivation, I will try and make some time for my self and get this ball rolling. even if I am just talking about the lives these cool people have...

when I CLEARLY do not have anything cool to do, or cannot get out of the house. but it is nice to be surrounded by such babes ;)

(FAUX BLOGGERS NOTE:: i do not do cool things like i did in these pictures anymore. or look like that. meow!)

so maybe tomorrow i can post pictures of Ben and myself poppin' bottles in the living room while we wii bowl, just so we can chat about how cool being a brand new mommy is on NYE. don't be jelly!

Happy Spanksgiving!!

welp, although I THOUGHT i was going to have time to do this every single day, i clearly do not. i do think about it though. but with an infant in my hands, a two year old at my feet, and a bug in my ear ( being the boyfriend) i really have time to close to nothing. as of right now, kids are sleeping and boyfriend is out bowling. i should be sleeping, because, baby is allowing me to and i have to get up early and travel all over western washington to see our families for thanksgiving. i cant even stomach the two hour drive to tacoma, just to sit there for 2 hours and drive 2 hours back to marysville to eat. the car is a potentially scary place with two smallies. Landon is either sleeping or screaming, and Gavin is either talking my ear off, whining, or sleeping. im really hoping for a lot of baby sleep tomorrow. sigh.

seems as though i have nothing positive to say. i will leave on this note though--

isnt he the sweetest thing you've ever seen!? i am so in love with him, it doesn't matter all the dramatics and psychobabble bull shit going on- i love this little boy!! Ben sat him up on the couch and he gave this big ol gummy smile before he lost control of his head and started to fall over... i melted. hes such a doll face, and sleeping like a champ tonight!!