I am doing sleep training right now, and holy mother. I've always been stubborn, and just my luck that my sweet boy is just as bad. I have nursed him to sleep his entire 5 months of existence. It was so easy, and HELLO! Attachment parenting for the win. I loved it as much as he did. There was something so relaxing about it. It became unrelaxing when he started waking up more and more and more until he was awake every 45 mins wanting to nurse. It all started about 8 weeks ago, and ended a few nights ago. I was up until 5 am, in tears, and exhausted. I can't fall asleep knowing he's just going to turn around and wake up again!! It was miserable. After researching WAY more than I should have, I came up with a few ways to monitor his day time sleep ( to make sure he's not over tired or too rested) and have not nurses him to sleep in 3 days. It's been hard, for both of us but the sleep we both got yesterday made it worth it! Tonight has not been looking so good, but, fingers crossed.
Moral of today's story, is I haven't really been writing lately because:: 1) life is happening. It doesn't slow for anything! And 2) because i'm an emotional mess. I am so sappy and lovey dovey and I'm just trying to spare you.
It's do crazy when you can look at your child/ren and be so in love every time. Maybe it's because Landon is growing SO (or, too) fast... Or because GAvin is getting SO smart... I am just a big bundle of love and I'm so happy to be where I am. Even when things are hard in the moment, I can look at my kids and be on cloud 9. Even though I miss my old life so much.. My friends, my job, and my independence ( ahem; and my body) I would change anything in the world. I am always just a baby snuggle away from being happy no matter what.
(FAUX-BLOGGERS NOTE:: I'm done. You are spared.)
Being all lovey and smoochy with my babies doesn't make me not tired though, so, I'm going to sleep. It's going to be a long weekend. Also, my app doesn't allow me to add pictures through out , so here's another photo bomb, courtesy of my iPhone.
